In One So Small

In One So Small

The world has ended

No one else realizes

But I know

They keep going

But I will never move again

There is a hand drawing me close

Words of comfort whispered in my ear

But I do not feel it

I do not hear them

Nothing can penetrate the darkness surrounding my heart

I am not sad

I do not feel sorrow or even grief

Those words are not strong enough to express my emotions

They are shallow

What I feel is so much deeper

There is no word for it

Tears roll from my eyes

But they are just a reaction

They do not show how deeply this pain cuts

Then something touches me

A tiny hand grasps mine

I look down

A little girl looks back up at me

Just a child

Barely more than a baby

Her eyes are wide

Her face is troubled

She whispers

"Don't cry, Mommy

I love you"

Can God have placed Himself in one so small?

I gather her into my arms

Draw me close to you, O Lord

Just as I draw my child close to me

Comfort me

Just as I comfort her

I finally realize

I still have something to live for

Things are not better

I do not laugh

I do not even smile

My life isn't fixed

My heart isn't healed

But I have a purpose

Time and prayer will heal these wounds

Can anything erase the scars?

But I have a hope

And a future

A reason to live

A reason to move

Can God have placed Himself in one so small

Just to remind me?

In honor of all those left behind - our prayers are with you.

"For we do not mourn like those who have no hope..."

Matt and Brody Knapp

May 7th 2009

Marcos Gonnet

September 8th 2009

Rejoice In His Presence!